Trade Journal | 11.30.2022 | Wed. | -$1033.20

I want today to be a good day win or loss. It is my father’s birthday & it doesn’t need to be tainted by any vacuous emotions. Control your mind. Elaborate on this thought in your regular journal. Opening the platform now. Today should be a crumbs day, unless some abundantly clear price action is taking place. End the month on a reasonable note.

In a considerably choppy area just underneath a daily level. This is a no trade situation, even attempting for crumbs is just treacherous here.

Made logistical mistake that buried me, was trying to get out of spiking price action by selling, but I was short & was clicking wrong button.

Well buried myself back to red for the month by $100 or so. I am not trading as if this is creative. Change it in scythe. Maybe I have daddy issues.

The one good thing at least is that I didn’t blow up like September. It is likely that this is because in September I felt I had more profits, but regardless. I had profits this month then blew them all, but I did not go much below the threshold. Still, I need to control myself. If that means I can only control myself however many days a week so be it. I’ve done well at the beginning of the month then blown it. I marked to the moment the turn around this month and it was the psychological level of 2000. I even noted it, I said “I am at a precarious position psychologically for the month, after yesterdays performance I tipped over $2000 in monthly profits, a number that I want to stay at or surpass, and that I can imagine seeing a decline from would psychologically impact me.” in my Trade Journal for 11.18.2022 and what took place is precisely what I was afraid of. I am impacted by these numbers.

Infuriating. My last trade for the sake of being ‘green’ I fucking kept my stop tight, and I may have been the last person taken out before the price dumped. I still would have been red, but I likely could have pocketed $500. I wouldn’t have had the balls to hold I’m sure. When I give the trade room to workout it goes too far against me, and when I don’t give the trade room to workout it goes in my favor. Infuriating.

Bought into Jpow Pop after seeing it in itu chat. Made some back. These are the plays I need to be waiting for. I am ending the month small green at least now. Need to stay plugged in with X. The chat is growing, I need to stay plugged in with the right people & X is the right people. -$465.60

Chased got back in lost more than I just won. Clawed back and forth a little bit. -$1033.20

Could have walked away. Didn’t.

I never recover from red days. I should have taken the booster and left.

/ES Ripped. If I’d just held then all my dreams of having a green day and more would have come true. But same as last problem, when I give the trade room I get fucked and when I don’t it goes. Though I did give significant room for this and just got pained out. For your viewing pleasure/pain: