Did not journal before trading. Then just chopped myself to pieces. Not sure what’s wrong with me. It’s like I have to put myself in a position of feeling horrible before I stop. Yesterday was bad enough, but this morning driving over, I was thinking to myself, rationalizing: ‘well, it’s…
Year: 2022
Trade Journal | 11.30.2022 | Wed. | -$1033.20
I want today to be a good day win or loss. It is my father’s birthday & it doesn’t need to be tainted by any vacuous emotions. Control your mind. Elaborate on this thought in your regular journal. Opening the platform now. Today should be a crumbs day, unless some…
Trade Journal | 11.29.2022 | Tue. | -$767.60
First day back in Drip office. Only potential red flag is I was unable to get a full 8 hours of sleep last night. I clocked in a solid 6, likely because I consumed coffee too late in the afternoon. I’ve since created a new designation in the scythe app…
Trade Journal | 11.28.2022 | Mon. | $280.40
Feeling refreshed enough. Don’t want to overthink too much. Had what may be helpful revelation over the last few days in building out scythe app: to conceptualizing trading as an activity of creation, to enter with purpose and intent with the realization that my engagement with the market is a…
Trade Journal | 11.21.2022 | Mon. | -$335.50
Meditated 5 minutes. First time doing so in possibly years. Must become a necessity. Mind is clear enough when life is calm, but life will not always be calm and I must control my mind. Feeling decent now, calm enough, rested, and with some time to trade. Have a ‘meeting’…
Trade Journal | 11.18.2022 | Fri. | -$480.10
Still sick with cold, but have slept a healthy amount & diet has been very healthy. Do not feel terrible other than stuffy & coughing, no pain. I am at a precarious position psychologically for the month, after yesterdays performance I tipped over $2000 in monthly profits, a number that…
Trade Journal | 11.17.2022 | Thu. | $455.40
Currently have a cold, but am well rested and at home. Only frustrating thing is the small rush I’m in, I’m supposed to have a meeting in 20 minutes. I am willing to open the market, but recognize it may be folly to try and force something in this time…
Trade Journal | 11.9.2022 | Wed. | $105.40
Feeling a little bit rushed with Lyre work & meeting commitments, want to calm down a bit. Other than that, feeling solid, comfortable. Planning to enter market once again with small goals, going for crumbs and hopefully leaving with crumbs. opening platform now. Choppy, hovering above 3800 level. Got in…
Trade Journal | 11.8.2022 | Tue. | $516.20
Feeling a little anxious, current events & the prospect of the future with today’s election in progress are contributing factors to this feeling. Personally, feel maybe a little off balance after having spoken with my parents yesterday, my mom for quite a while as she helped me to fill out…
Trade Journal | 11.7.2022 | Mon. | $105.40
Feeling calm, rested, free. Feeling good in other areas of my life, have been diversifying my time & maintaining an upward trajectory creatively, with work, with Aubrey. Not to be delved into here, but the point is I feel stable and ready to trade responsible. Opening TOS Now. Looks choppy,…
Study Journal | 11.3.2022
Must have systems and processes Identifying flaws systematically
Trade Journal | 11.3.2022 | Thu. | $123.30
Feeling calm, rested, balanced, ready to go into the market and do what I need to do: have small goals and have reasonable analysis. Prepared to take a loss, and to be content with a small loss. Prepared to take profits and be content with small profits. Looking at the…
Trade Journal | 11.1.2022 | Tue. | $155.40
IN drip office, opening TOS now. Market near strong daily level, this is usually a recipe for choppy action. On the 15 minute & the 1 hour it looks like a strong case for a bear flag. If I wat for a break below the daily level this could be…
Trade Journal | 10.31.2022 | Mon. | $160.80
Preparing to trade. Preparing to trade in the style executed in the last trade journal, in which I’m telling myself I don’t need excessively wide context in the market to be able to have success. I’m looking to find a reasonable, small trend and to capture 2 points on /ES.…
Trade Journal | 10.27.2022 | Thu. | $105.40
Yesterday’s journaling helped me I think. I think I am having a confidence crisis and it’s not helped at all by my habit of only indulging myself in self criticism without balancing it with self praise. If my fear is that I become too positively delusional about myself, then the…
Trade Journal | 10.26.2022 | Wednesday | -$792.30
Infuriating watching things tank in the direction I was in. I get shaken out because I don’t have wide enough stops, but then when my stops are too wide, I lose too much. Need to size down again. Futures are too much. Was going so well, but I obliterated all…
Trade Journal | 10.19.2022 | Wed. | -$355.10
Should have been a no trade day. Immediately saw chart hovering around significant daily level and first thought was this is chop shit. Traded anyway but didn’t get completely out of hand, although had I lost again, it may have. Need to establish rules. Was thinking 3 trades a day…
Trade Journal | 9.30.2022 | Fri. | -$1,690.90
Feeling depressed. Was already feeling lower than low, flight to Denver today, got just under 6 hours of sleep, got to airport, texted Mom back telling her I’d be arriving I’m too good at going numb, I have some issue, when I’m hurt, I hurt myself more, because there’s like…
Trade Journal | 9.29.2022 | Thu. | -$1247.40
I think I’m a masochist. I’ve now given up all my profits for the period since I started in April. I was up a bit today, I could have stopped and been green on the month, but like a magnet to $1k loss which seems to be my terminal limit,…
Trade Journal | 9.28.2022 | Wed. | -$1,104.80
Well its official. Given back all of my profits from September and likely a little more. Took a fucking car trade, took a position from my phone then driving to drip office, couldn’t close it out, pulled over got service, then closed out -725. Then entered another position, was green…